Date: Wed Apr 12, 2000 1:59pm Subject: Anneke-cahn's First kill [short angst] Okay here is my second story in the First series. (The other one being Is it your First Time). You'll see I like to write short stories with a twist to them... Set at the end of the Series. Spoilers? Maybe? Type: Author: Anneke-chan Title: The First Kill... I didn't mean to do it. My hands have dripped with blood before, but not like now. The thing that once was a person is now dead, and it's my fault. How could I do this, after so long? How can I abandon all that I have learned? Was it an accident, did I mean to do? They will all be so upset and disappointed in me. It's never going to go away, this pain I feel inside, these images before me. It's not going to stop. Am I going to kill and kill, even those I love like the Battousai years ago. I'm not like that I tell myself, but here is a body in front of me. The shame, the guilt, the pain weighs me down, and I wonder if there is a point to continue. Will I ever see the one I love smile again. Will she understand, how can she, when I don't understand myself. She should curse me and run from me. Maybe it was a mistake, but swords are the evil in the hand of the wielder. What happened, how could I do this? How did my Sakabatou betray me! I tell myself the man was evil, but that doesn't make up for the evil I did. I can tell myself it was for good, for protecting of people, yet the gash in his shoulder and across his chest tells a different story. I can't put the sword down, but how can I go forward from this point with what I've done. I've buried the body now, but my heart still hurts. Should I turn myself in before I become some horrid creature or is it already to late? How will I explain, how can I. Should I just wander alone and leave everyone behind? Lots of paths before me, when the one truth in the matter is I've killed. Who can I talk to, who will understand? Kenshin...I'm sorry. Notes: Sakabatou - Reverse Blade Any guesses who the story is about? Anneke-chan